Shockwaves

WOW haven’t been here for quite some time. so

updates: Worship retreat was great, weather was great (except for the 10 min or so we were caught in rampant rain that wouldn’t stop coming down on us), food was so-so but thank God anyway ha ha, people were awesome, and the worship comm peeps + band was AWESOME and God, was the Best of all. eleven claps for everyone (try to imagine it in your head I don’t have sound clips to aid you)

The aftermath – School is being unforgiving and killing me with all the backlogged readings. And philosophy is killing me, seriously everything’s just going in a circle. circleS. I’m getting dizzy and way too impatient. I want facts, I don’t want to spend my entire weekend ruminating on what Socrates thinks. This is the first and last philo mod I’m ever gonna take!

Need to stop eating crap and start running more. Basically I need discipline.

New(s)

http://brighterdiscontent.tumblr.com

I’ll be blogging much more from there in the near future(actually i’ve already began). I seem to find more solace in pictures that can be interpreted in a thousand different ways by a million different people. You’re invited into this world!

War

All these battles you fight with yourself

It’s Easier To Hide

“Pain. You just have to ride it out. You can only hope it goes away on its own, hope the wound that caused it heals. There are no solutions, no easy answers, you just breathe deep and wait for it to subside.“

— Greys Anatomy

Disarray

Do we really struggle to know we are still alive, or is struggling just a sign of weakness, a voice in your head silently screaming at you, telling you about how you can’t handle it, how you can’t tell the difference between a truth and a lie any longer, how you should just cut loose that last strand of hope you are barely hanging onto because what is Hope, really?

Do we truly believe that it exists, or do we only believe it exists because of what the world keeps drilling into us? Everything on this earth is so fleeting and transient. We blink, and the person standing next to us is gone. We grab desperately at bubbles that burst at a single touch. We hover and wait, wait and hover, but what we are waiting for is never ours to hold.

What are you holding onto?

The Broken Clock Is A Comfort

The Time Traveler’s Wife Trailer

Definitely gonna watch this one. Hope it doesn’t wreck the book!

Emo(tions)

BORED to death by my readings. Never knew the theory of emotions could be so suffocatingly draggy and dry. Whyohwhy. I’m wasting my youth away.

Oompa Loompa

Play

Free day today! Hopefully once I appeal they will take pity on my sorry self for having to travel 4 hours for a (lame) 2 hour lesson. But obviously if I use the word ‘lame’ no pity will be granted, only loathing and disgust and no free day for me. Is it wrong to ask you to pray I get my Wednesdays free from the clutches of NUS and it’s long corridors and a MASS of late people rushing for class?

On a side note, I kinda hate travelling in the trains/buses during the peak hours. It’s pure insanity, being squashed head first by an army of kiasu singaporeans (not excluding myself) into the unforgiving doors that clamp shut behind you,

leaving you suffocated and face to armpit with the rest of the working crowd. We’re no better than sardines in a can, with body odour, weary faces and tired legs to match. I wonder how those girls in heels or stilletos survive standing – it must be quite a stretch for them. Everytime I get on the first thing that goes through my mind is ‘God please give me a seat soon’, and then I turn and see one of the aged and old standing next to me and bite my tongue while a long scribble of unhealthy swear words run through my mind.  It’s hard to be a good person, and it’s even harder to be a good Christian. The good ole’ Singapore government should just provide more(more!!!) buses and trains during these trying times ha ha.

Good day to you. The weather is lovely today by the way. 4 out of 7 days should be overcast like that :>

Hanging By A Thread

I love rainy days.

• I love my sunday afternoon chats with random(or not so random) peeps
• Why must it rain when I have the sudden motivation to go for a run, finally?
• Readings are only as interesting as you make them out to be
• Martin (and Paul) called for the 2nd time this week to ask the same question (ROLLZ EYEZ)
• Today’s music was tight, I like. Thank God
• I’ve not seen my classmates in a really long while..is it time again?
• Love cutting the collars of oversized tees and wearing them(all-day PJs)
• I found a huge bottle of Florida’s Natural Orange Strawberry Juice(Not From Concentrate). probably from Tim.
• “Where your treasure is, there your heart will be also” – Matt 6:21

So cute.I like the man hanging. he looks a tad weird though.

Flavours of Entanglement

Summer break is officially over. School has been extremely tiring, what with all the 3 hours of travelling a day, crusade activities that seem to just.keep.coming.(I must really learn how to say no soon), and of course readings that have been piling up in a new corner in my room that hasn’t already been invaded by books from the past semester, which I don’t clear. It’s kind of too much work. Lazy indeed, Steph. But this sem’s better, in terms of friends and friendships. I’m not a loner anymore! AND before you start thinking about how pathetic I am being a ‘loner’ and all it wasn’t as bad as you thought, whoever YOU are. University life and all it’s independence and lack of mutual support aka rat race competitveness is just not my thing. But I guess this is the prep stage just before we get thrown out into the real world and get trampled on unless we stand up for ourselves and stand on top of others too. Okay the latter is questionable, up to your own discretion and moral conscience, or the lack thereof.

Worship practice on Wednesday night was something new too – especially since I (nor the rest of them) have ever jammed in a public space before, let alone at the MPSH in school, I’m pretty sure you can imagine me rolling my eyes right now. But nonetheless thank God no one chased us away and we even had random people lurking around wondering what in the world we were doing. Pretty good evangelistic tool aye.

I admire people like WM who come to school everyday and treat it like it’s an adventure. It’s like I want to be like him but I just can’t cos everything just wears you down, like an old brick road that’s so frequently trodden on it’s lost it’s color and it’s become very close to fading to a non-committal, dull, monotonous grey. I like his positive attitude though, it’s a good one to adopt. Never too late for self-improvement right?